Got this by mail from Shawn Fong, my ex-classmate. I think this deserves sharing. Nothing too deep, but some I’m reflecting upon myself.

.Anger is a condition in which
The tongue works faster than the mind.

.You can’t change the past,
but you can ruin the present
By worrying over the future.

.Everyone needs to be loved,
Especially when they do not deserve it.

.Love is strengthened by working through conflicts together.

.Harsh words break no bones but they do break hearts.

.To get out of a difficulty,
one usually must go through it.

.For every minute you are angry with someone,
you lose 60 seconds of happiness that you can never get back.

Tagged by Asuka from dA. ^^

Okay here’s the rules:
1. Post these rules:
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
3. Tags should write a journal/ blog of these facts
4. At the end of the post 8 more persons are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they’re tagged

 8 random facts about ayez:

1.       Has been skipping classes for a few days due to gastric problems T__T
2.       Lately I have been pretty much addicted to the whole Harry Potter Series. Read book 5, 6 and 7 consecutively and on the run watching Harry Potter the movie 1,2,3 and 4. O_O;;;
3.       Pretty much sucks at gaming. Never stick to a game more than 3 months. Never ever finished games, especially RPG. T_T Except for online games (Ragnarok Online, the longest) and games that has no ending to it like Rthe Sims 2.
4.       Hates pink, will hate pink, will never ever like pink, because pink reminds me of babi. *oink*
5.       Oh.. I just know from mom that I have been experiencing gastric and “perut masuk angin” eversince I was a baby. O_O No wonder.. it’s.. getting.. worst day by day…
6.       Used to be a ‘poyo’ kid next door who dresses in oversized clothes, wears this poyo cap frontside back and pretends to be a gangster/tomboy. Influenced by The Young and Dangerous by that time, which I have collected the whole series wooohhhttt!! Now hilang la.. Banjir.. Dunno where half of my CDs are oredi. ~_~
7.       I love KRU. Used to go head over heels about them kukukuu… Now so-so. Still think they’re one of the good anak Malaysia who happens to have the courage to boost up Malaysia’s local music industry. In their own way. yeah.
8.       O_O;; erm.. apa lagi yah. The boy I am currently in love with (happy and blessed), well, we used to be super-duper-hate-each-other-enemies. He can’t stand looking at me right on the face and I despise him. Eventually.. O_O We got together. So.. don’t go say benci-benci too much ar or you guys end up loving each other like us hahahahaha!!!

RANDOM!!!! ~_~)v yeah. I’m gonna play Lineage II now. Not going to tag anyone. ^^;

To all muslims, Selamat Berpuasa~~!!! ^^ To UiTM Students… =A= The horrorhhhh… After Puasa, got one week break during Raya then examssssss!!!! *pats pats* Let’s ganbatteh together. ^^; Though, lately I don’t think I am ganbatte-ing at all. Skipped class for 2 whole days straight (including one Design Crit session) which I don’t give a damn anymore and partly because I was sick. Lately when I am so stressed the acid tends to pour out like mad and I ended up aching and vomiting in the toilet, which, at times scares the heck out of the ones passing by or accidentally hear the ugly sound of it.

Hmm… I pleade guilty!
Started playing Lineage II and.. though I’m not very good at gaming, am getting the likes of it. and the QUEST!!! It’s.. kinda addictive at first. Gwehehehe…. O_O Hope I won’t get too addicted or else die la… Good thing my rented house doesnt have internet connection so the only way for me to go and play is when I bring my PC at home. Which.. I will be taking it back to the rented house once I settled with a new mobo. T_T Still waiting for Ariz to have some spare time to guide me through this mobo shopping thingy.

Ja na! And happy fasting!! ^^

…a new motherboard. T_T Even after sending it for technician inspection, it still have the problem to start up argshfahtghfha!!! While at it,hope dad will throw in a few cash to upgrade my RAM. =3=

…and I need time. TIME!! DESPERATELY NEED MORE TIME!!!!! T____T Crit is this thursday gurghhhhhh… When will I have the time to get the new mobo.

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Just got back from a trip to the clinic, gastric problem again. Turns out the doctor (whom was very nice indeed) telling me that I have unstable intestine. OAO;; Gave me this whole bunch of pills and advised me to take small but continuous munch of snacks every hour to reduce the overflow of acid in my stomach. Annnddd.. asked me not to stressed out as it will produce more acid as well. =_= yeah like I can control my stress at times like this. =3=

This Thursday is the start of Ramadhan. Which means I have to start puasa. With gastric and all, I hope I can manage puasa. T__T

I want a new mobo wuuuu….

Bas rosak the next day we arrived in Terengganu, and rosak sampai we’re heading back to Shah Alam Three days after arrival. Talk about fun. yippeehh!! *sarcasm*

Other than the transportation problem, administration problem (fook UiTM admin), lecturers’ unstable emotions, organizing individuals’ stress and the usual lateness us Studio 07, it’s quite an OK trip. The measuring drawing of the building went ok. The only drawback is.. LAME GILER DUDUK DALAM BAS!!!!! Sakit tulang.

The Sri Iskandarians girls who went to the Terengganu trip seems to be on the flirty side with our boys lately… Tini labels them as gersang. Haha.. Ye ar dah ade balak dok gatal lagi ngan manusia bujang watper. Bukan manusia bujang tu yang carik die. Ni seriously perigi penuh yg dah ade timba tak puas dengan satu timba je. Nak bebanyak timba sebab timba yang lagi satu duduk jauh. Cis.

Pics?

Nah.. save it for later. :3

Current Mood: speechless

Just cleaning up and managing my dA notes. Found out some old friends, interesting gift arts, exchanges and such. ^^ But the most interesting and intrigued me to click and read it all is this one, by a so called someone close to my heart.

Ayezzzzzzz~~~~~~

ne ayez~ I got something stucked in my head, I need to clear em up, but I need a help from anyone, you’re the closest, coz YYY and XXX is not going to be a help in this problem. They’re just going to bring me a dead end. x__x;

first of all, I want to contact u thru phone but my phone has been barred 9v9;;; and I can’t write these in my blog coz it’s lil too private to do so. .___.

ZZZ just told me that he might stop drawing comics after this year CF. He said he’s not capable to do so, he doesn’t own the skills enough to make him noticed in public. he just.. want to forget.. making comics again. He said, it’s not going to be a success.. T^T

he asked me to define good artist. so I’ve tried my best to explain in the appropriate and proper way, so I wont slip my tongue and say something bad. I said that a good artist is not necessary means popular, or in dA - owns hundreds thousands pageviews to prove it. we’ve seen much artists who have problems with proportion, inking, coloring, or ideas, but sometimes they own lots of pageviews too. there must be other skills, if you judge artist in DA lah.

but he kinda.. close his heart and chose to ‘let it be’, thus ignore my words and wont let me go thru and understand what he’s thinking about.

I’m upset. he even said he wanna stop and leave DA. but in another minutes, he said maybe he’s gonna be like XXX. “bertapa, and never come back” he said. I’m truly upset. It ate me to the core. It’s hard to find a partner who have the same interest, no? He is the one who brought me to DA. Who made me explores digital art and all. But he’s the one who’s gonna leave. When he said like he’s gonna forget his dream about making comics too; I’ve become more and more upset. It’s like my own dream vanished. at once.

T^T;;

Even tho I’m good in words as much people has said to me, the truth is I can’t do anything in this case. It’s only up to him. I’ve said what I’ve supposed to. I’m going to support him whatever it takes.

I’m sad, I’m truly, truly sad. I don’t know what will I feel what will I think and what will I do if he really really leave DA, and forget about his comics. I told him, if he leave DA, I’m going to leave too. There’s no meaning to be here without him. Even tho I can continue my dreams of being some artist then, but he’s my true, core support. I’ll lose one foot and one arm if he leave. Maybe I’ll just be an empty container. Got skills, but no heart. ;__;

What should I do~?

_{date : Nov 15, 2005}

Funny how people changes through time. *shrugs*
Change is not something I am against off. It amuses me. Intriguing.

Current Mood: Unwell & Frustrated

For the past few days I can’t sleep properly,
Ended up me lying awake around until 6am.

Haven’t been participating myself in class for the past seven days,
Ended up people saying “Eh Ayez lame giler tak nampak ko” when I cameby the studio.

Suddenly came by the studio and lepak around for the night a few days back,
Ended up finding that two of my “single” studio mates just entered the world of “partnership”. haha.. congratz guys!
(aku tak datang kelas seminggu je dah maju ek korang. hebat hebat!)

Ditched tutorial sessions for Design last Monday
Ended up Cik Norsyam calling my handset every now and then that day, morning till afternoon. kowai… O_O

The eve of tutorial session, Qamey asked permission to borrow my printer,
but due to the reason that my PC was a bit cacat during start up (CPU Fan Error or sumthing), ended up Qamey opening the inside of my PC to adjust the fan. PC is starting up ok then, but for after 15 minutes or so, the windows suddenly decided to go jammed and.. Can’t turn it on eversince.

Yesterday, I just sent my PC to be repaired.
Today, I can’t do my work. Most of my files are inside the PC. Sent some backup files to a few of my groupmates regarding some subjects. Turns out they didn’t even bother to transfer the files to their computer and just deleted it from their thumbdrive. Bijak bijak.. Esok present ETR kat En Mail verbal aje la ye~

Argh takleh tidur!!!!
Dah pkul 5.30 pagi… ~_~
Biological clock gile dah weng…

oh, pagi ni kene gi court.
saya yang tertuduh, kerana tidak mengantungkan kad matriks ketika di perkarangan kolej pada tahun lepas. Buntut. Kawasan kolej pun kene gantung kad matriks. Dah la Pak Gad yang kasik surat saman tu bebel cam haram je thn lepas, siap dengan lambat giler nak tulis details-details dalam surat saman tu, berserta dengan tulisan currrrssssivvvveeee ala-ala surat cinter. Pui~

oh, pagi esok bergerak ke Terengganu untuk measure drawing. 4 hari. Ahad baru balik. Isnin… Crit session 3. ARGHHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!

T__T Evifyuu.. kembalilahhhhh.. tidak keruan saya hendak tidur tanpa mengetaui keadaan sebenarmu wuwuwuuuuu….