Current Mood: cheers! & cheers!

Got this FWD email from my husband who got it from my mother in law. Wanted to share it with my readers. It’s very interesting. =) Gotta love the drawing, and the message it delivers.

_{p/s: For those of you who’re active in Deviantart, you guys might know the artist. Anyways the original can be found here. Artworks done by Nayzak.}

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Current Mood: Eek!! & Eek!!

HUHUHUUUUUUUUUUU!!!! My husband went to the US yesterday to join a science invention convention (or sumthing like that) for TEN FRIGGIN DAYS!!! And it’s only been 24 hours since he’s gone… Rindunyeeeerrrrrr!!! Seems like it was just yesterday that he went to London for that other exhibition. That was about 10 months ago. And these 10 days to come felt like forever. T_T

Hi!
Long time no see. =) Feeling depressed lately?
I hope not.

*sigh*

Have you ever felt that there is a [reset] button for you to press that could make you start over your life from any point you like? Well… I wish there was such a thing. Hmm… I’ve been thinking a lot lately. About work stuff, about my personal interests, about where I am standing now and where I should have been standing if I took a different path on a crossroad I met with a long time ago. Anyways, I just read a journal entry from a fellow online friend. I kinda look up to her in certain aspects because I feel like we have some things in common, and she’s a year older than I am. We’re both female who studies architecture (I’m in UiTM while she’s in UIA), we both draw anime-manga-stuff (but she’s way wayyy better than I do and is well known online for her talent), and I just got to know that she got married recently too! The thing is, she pursued her career in architecture. She further her studies abroad and is on her way of becoming a lecturer. She has even designed and built her own house to live in with her husband. For me, that is one thing I used to thought I could do, but instead I am nowhere near that now.

Did I regret pursuing my career that makes me do the things I like? Well, nope. I just wished I had worked harder, and that this particular career has a better prospect to get more recognition from the masses in this particular country. Sadly, I don’t think it’s even possible within my time frame. Though, the potential is there and that the government does give monetary support but it’s a bit slow and I don’t really know if it can catch up to a point that making it as a long term career. I even get to see smirks on people faces when I told them I’m working as an animator with a 12 hour job with [this] amount of payment and [this] much of benefit from the company. Sometimes it makes me happy that some people DO actually recognize animators as an actual job, but it irks me when they asked me…
“Oh, so ko kije kat company sekian sekian kat shah ala ni la ye?? yang buat cite 3D sekian sekian tu?”
“err.. tak. aku kije kat company sekian sekian kat puchong. ktorang buat 2D animation je”
“oh? 2D je?” *insert smirked face*

yeah rite whatever…

I think I am standing at another crossroad here. Whether I should go back and revert to become another normal working citizen with a normal working hour that can cope up with a normal growing family, or just pursue and give it all I’ve got to this uncertainty?
I envy my online friend there.
She’s enjoying what she’s doing.

I am losing it.

Give me back the pleasure of doing the things I like! PLEASE!!!

p/s: I am now 6 weeks pregnant and not feeling too healthy…

I just got back from Seremban this afternoon. The one night spent at my granny’s in Seremban was.. hmm.. how to say.. quizzical. My grandma and aunt asked me questions regarding my plans after marriage, as well as what i want to do for the wedding reception. To tell you the truth, I don’t really know what I want ahahahaha!! Colour theme? How many wedding dresses to wear? Wedding door gifts? Honeymoon? Where to live after getting married? whatdaheck I never really bothered to think about all those stuff. I guess I’m the type who just jump into the situation without even thinking much. I think Ariz is being much more restless and agitated compared to me. My fuse must have died. =3=

On other note, Happy Chinese NIU year!!!

Current Mood: Depressed

Recently, Ah Loong had ordered the ABC Monsters Team (lead by Jing Hui @ Zeen) to stayback everyday till 9pm. We normally go back around 7pm by the way. The reason he asked us to go back home late was because he’s not really satisfied with the ABC Monsters animation and wanted us to do better. Hmm.. by staying back late? Well, ok if we stay back we’d have more time to produce better animation (hopefully) but the dateline for ABC Monsters was tight as it is..

Anyways, yesterday we were asked to stay back a little bit later than usual. Say around 10.30pm. I don’t really mind actually since I also had to do extra two files from Anna, which is quite a long scene. BUT.. whatdaheck suddenly Vincent asked the ABC Team to help him do ammendments for this frickin animation subbed from another company. Turns out, I had to go back after 12am… It’s the latest time I’ve ever stayed back at the office.

To make matters worst, I didn’t realize my phone died on me which makes Ariz and my mom worried sick about me. Haha funny thing is I was wondering why my mum didn’t even bother to call and check up on me. Ironic. Ariz tried calling me since 12.30am and turns out, he drove all the way from Shah Alam to my office to pick me up. Eversince that incident, he had decided for me that I should quit Animasia before we get married.

Hmmm… quit Animasia. I never intended to work permanently there in the first place but I really NEVER intended to quit that soon. I was planning somewhere around September or December. He keep on insisting that I quit the company for several reason I don’t feel comfortable of telling publicly here.

I don’t want to quit. yet… T_T Please, let me gain more knowledge and experience here.. I really love working here eventhough the pay is not that much compared to my friends who’re working as Assistant Architect or Design Architect right now, but I love doing what I’m doing right now. The colleagues are all very nice people too. I felt a sense of belonging. I don’t care if you think I’m talking crap or I’m just living myself in an illussion created by myself. I’m happy here!!

T__________T urgh.. you..

Current Mood: wtf..

Dato’ Seri Anwar Ibrahim has been caught today. He was supposed to report to the police at 2 p.m. He was caught at 1.05 pm at his home after he came back from the Anti Corruption Agency. This is conspiracy. Even if the police wants to capture him, they could’ve atleast waited for the clock to past 2 pm, according to their statement.

I guess Pak Lah (or the government or the one who’s been controlling him) is afraid of his own shadows.

Speaking of that, the traffic jam last Monday really has cause so much trouble not only for the citizen of Malaysia but for foreigners and investors who happens to be here aswell.I just read The Star newspaper just now. A Thai investor complained that he had missed his flight back to Bangkok and had to cancel his two important meetings just because the government is afraid of this “one guy”. Great job you guys. You’ve really put a “good” impression about how Malaysia handle problems. 9-9

I’m not into politics very much but seeing all this “drama” the government has been putting up, I can’t help but think and ponder on it subconsciously… and I’m not type of person who really cares about current issues!!

Current Mood: Frustrated

I’m trying to put up the AdSense and AdBrite code on my wordpress, but I’m having trouble putting it up. I tried following the instructions and tutorials posted on the web on how to do so but every time I tried putting up the code on the post/page file, it doesn’t show up. O_O Urgh.. maybe I put it on the wrong file, or I may be missing some steps. I downloaded the wordpress ad plugin but.. not sure if it come out the way I wanted. Haha better say it, it didn’t come out at all actually. =”= aiyoh… Now where or where have it gone wrong.

Hmmm.. internet at home is being sucky. SUCKY SUCKY SUCKY!!! and I thought internet at the campus was sucky. Streamyx at home is suckier!! =A= I kept on getting disconnected and getting the “This Page Cannot Be Displayed” error. Bummer!

Ouyah and I’m currently in my danger zone of exam week. First paper this Thursday and here I am in denial of studying. I must study, but I don’t feel like doing it. I must graduate, therefore I must finish up all my assignments, but due date has long pass. ~___~ Why am I feeling so unmotivated these days. Even unmotivated towards giving commitment and encouragement to my other half.

EVERYTHING IS JUST NOT THAT EXCITING ANYMOAAARRRHHH!!!!!!!

shit.